Today I was able to (and managed to, of course) submit all the samples I prepared during the spring quarter. These are 30 counts with all different chemistries, getting prepared by diverse techniques.
It was a tough journey, and also just a one single step for my overall thesis project. Once they're confirmed as intact and flawless, then that's another start of a new chapter for my dissertation.
I got to the work late today, like 4pm because I was super exhausted due to the continuing over work. Today I ordered some groceries through Amazon fresh, which was supposed to be arriving at 10pm. Before I go to work I thought that I could make it before 9, but later on I realized that it is definitely impossible.
And the time when I was completely done with the sample packing was 11:50pm.
Holy moly.
Was kinda weird feeling to me, neither bad or good. Instead, I would call it as a 'high'.
You know, and we know,
Doing the job we want is very important.
Doing the work we should is so as well. However, life is hard. The real world does not usually allow you to do what you want for your work.
In that perspective, I bet I am kinda lucky guy, as I live by my own to make a modest living with fair enough (of course not that much) expense. Life of PhD student is hard to be feeling 'great' in terms of economy and financial status. But this is a bit different thing.
So, I believe what I felt today was kind of euphoria. And this was the moment that I refreshed a bit, as I was able to see myself in a correct way-- I know what I wanna do, and I do what I would like to do, study, and work.
Research and science need so much effort, as well as energy and especially, your 'youth'. You should invest your bestest moment of your life as young adult, a time of powerful and sexually attractive.
That is the science. That is what it takes from the people who loves it.
Now I re-assured that I am at the right place.